I’ve spent a lot of time just thinking. What on earth should I do?

One thing I’m sure about is that I don’t want to meet up with me. In February 05 I was still at uni – so I’m keeping well away from Cambridge, and anywhere else I can remember going to in my early twenties – and that was a lot of parties, in a lot of towns!

I did wonder about making my way to Scotland, and trying to contact Colonel Hunter – assuming HQ for the project was there in 05. The thing is, even if I could get near the place, I’ve no means of proving who I am, and even if I could – well so what? In 05 they’d never heard of me. I don’t/didn’t join the team for another two years yet.

And if I did manage to persuade them to listen to me (after all, I can give a lot of inside information about the project to establish my bona fides) what would happen then? If I tell them about what happened after the first test, would that mean that they’d change something? If they did, and were successful, then I wouldn’t be here in this mess. But then, if I weren’t here, then I couldn’t tell them about the anomaly, and so the test would go ahead as set up, and I’d be here…

So, if I’m thinking this through logically, I can’t have managed to tell anyone about what happened, or else I wouldn’t be here.

Which I could just about accept. I’d be prepared, I think, to keep my head down, and just wait for three years, and then turn up at Mercury House after the test run, and tell them what happened. I could do that – and certainly I can keep financially afloat with odd jobs and gambling (can you call it a gamble when you know the outcome?). Identity cards will be more of a problem, but I’ve got time to work out a way round that.

But. The big but. The one that keeps pounding in my head, and which I’m trying vainly to ignore. Tom and Kate came with me on the test - but they didn't make it here. So are they dead? If they are, and I can get back to the team and stop the test, then I’ll save their lives.

Or will I? We get back to that loop again – if the test doesn’t happen, Tom and Kate don’t die, but also I don’t get sent back to '05, so I can’t warn them, so the test goes ahead…

But I can’t sit here and do nothing. If there’s the faintest chance of saving the other two members of my team, then I’ve got no choice but to take it. So, I’m hitch-hiking to Scotland tomorrow.